A Daughters Hidden Pain

I wrote this poem about how I use to feel about my mother when I was younger. I was very reckless, careless, and rude when I was younger. And very unappreciative of what I had. This is how I use to feel about my mother. We had a rocky relationship for practically my entire childhood do to my Bi-Polar disorder. It put a big rift in my life and I had to conequer it. Before I was stabilized on medication I use to feel about my mother this way. I'm sure there's plenty of you girls that feel this way about your mother, or at least have at some point.


"A Daughters Hidden Pain"
SSK
9-9-08


Falling through the sky
Time passes quickly by
The blood ribbons fall from my wrists
My heart is aching and my stomach twists
You think you know me, but you don't
You think you feel for me, but you won't
You have your world and your own life
And I have this darkness and a knife
You're always smiling every day
I'm always crying the pain away
You pick me up when I fall
But throw me down when I can't handle it all
I'm the sinner, you're the saint
You cover the mistakes, with white paint
My mistakes can't seem to hide
Because my words are colored tie-dye
You think you're cool, but you're not
You think I'm stupid, but really I'm caught
Caught in the tide of the sea
The sea of emotion, but you won't carry me
You make me feel like I am dead
But I still bleed the color red
Why does my heart ache like this so?
Because you're my mother, and I can't tell you to go.


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